C.R.U.S.H.

U WelcomeZ!! Cant wait to read...

It's been a few weeks since I first called Destanie. We've talked many more times after, she is the coolest chick I ever met..well not met, yet. My closest peoples know about her, Bow..NeYo..Columbus..and Omari--they all are waiting to meet her, including myself. We've discussed the issue of us meeting up but never have we made a date yet. Mainly because I been so busy trying to get ready for the 2007 BET Awards, so I didn't have much time to talk to her. But being it that I'm in Cali now is perfect because Destanie lives in Baldwin Hills, not too far from where the award show was hosted and not too far from where my hotel is...I think fate is dealing its cards in my favor.

But today was the day of the award show...It was crazy! I was so glad I could be apart of it, even though me and Bow didn't win best collab its still all good. Speaking of Bow, my boy wasn't too amped earlier because he saw Ciara sit next to 50, they were holding conversations when the camera wasn't on them--It drove Bow crazy, so he wasn't himself today no way, I told him he should've just told her he was sorry and did what he had to, to make it up to her, Ciara loved him so I know she would've easily took him back...And since he claimed to love her too I assumed he would've proved himself to her once more...But his ego and foolish pride got in the way and when you been hurt, sometimes its just best to move on- So I wish my home girl CiCi the best of luck........Anyways. The crazy energy of being in the same room with all those hot people was wild. All the performances were bananas!! My fav 3 were the Gerald Levert tribute, the Diana Ross tribute and of course Beyonce, when Kelly and Michelle and Solange came out..it was crazy. Kelly really doing her thing, hope to work with her one day...But Mo`Nique, that girl does it big all the time...and when she had LL Cool J take off her shoe, that was pimp shit, haha....Reppin for the big girls, lol...The whole show was just straight gulley!!! Man...every part of it, I loved it... And on top of that I presented an award with the lovely Rihanna....Everyone assumes that we're together or says we should get together. I mean I admit I had a slight crush on her, I still think she cute. But shes more like my sister...Besides she has a boyfriend, Its just that they're very secretive about it, so only a few folks know about it.

The after party at the Sky Bar in the Mondrian Hotel was even crazyier!....I did ALOT of dancing, girls were comming out of the wood work trying to get a dance. I never sat down, it was nuts....Shit, I even got a few glasses of champayne, lol. But don't tell my mama. The club started to bump my boy NeYo's hit "Because Of You" and I started to think of Destanie, its so funny---We're not together but it feels like it. You know how if you know someone; girl or boy...you both share a connection, feels like yall known each other for a good minute...talk about whatever with each other. There's even a mutual attraction there....But yall never made it offical, mainly because yall never talked about it. Well thats what its like between us.

It's now round 3am and people still going at it strong....Like the later it gets the hyper folks gets. Its the liquor I'm telling you, lol. But I decided to leave...I'm know I'm young and all but I was getting mad tired. But not just tired from the award show and after party but from all the days I been in the studio non-stop. So I got my chaffer` to drive me back to my hotel so I could sleep.....As I sat in the back of the Phantom I watched the city lights of the late LA I felt sleep compell my body, I closed my eyes about to pass out. But the loud ass ringer on my phone made me jump.


"Hello?" I said kinda aggravated. That's how I sound when I'm sleepy.

"You sleep already. You so weak." I heard her giggle through the phone, but hearing her voice made me wake up completely.

"Shut up girl, They was breaking me down on the dance floor." I replied playfully.

"Uh huh, I thought you was the prince of rhythm." She said smacking her lips.

"Oh, I'll show you what kind of rhythm I got." I laughed because I knew what I was thinking about.

"You so nasty." She laughed back.

"You saw the show?" I asked.

"Yup, I did. It was crazy." She answered.

"You see me though?" I responded.

"Look at you, yes I did...You looked funky fresh. But what was in your backpack though?" She asked laughing.

I laughed back. "Nothing."

"Then why did you wear it loser?" I could tell she smiled when she asked that.

"Shut up lame, its a fashion statement." I said turning my lips sideways, like she could really see me. Lol.

She snickered. "Uh huh okay Charlie Brown."

"Wamp, wamp." We paused for a second and laughed.

"You stupid." She said.

"I know...You still at work?" I asked.

"I didn't go to work today, had the day off." She said yawning.

"Now you weak." I replied.

"Huh?" She asked confused.

"Cause you getting sleepy." She smacked her lips and told me to shut up.

"Why don't you come outside and come kick it wit ya boy." I suggested.

"With who?" She asked.

"With me, duh." I said sarcasticly.

"For real? Thought you'd be on your way back home by now." She responded.

"I will in a few days, but for now I wanna see you. Is that okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, let me get dressed." She told me.

"Cool, aight just give me your addy." I said.

---She gave it to me and we hung up. I told my driver to head that way. I was so nervous...I'm finally gon meet her. I'm all excited. I sound like the fan and shes the celeb, lol. Crazy how the tables turn, well at least I know now how my fans feel.

We pulled up to the house she said she lived in, baby girl was living bigger than I was. I texted her that I was outside, 5 minutes later she was headed toward the car. The driver opened it for her, the door opened and our eyes met. She was looking so damn pretty. She sat closely besides me after we greeted each other with a hug and kiss on the cheek. In person we didn't talk much, we just looked out the window alot. Alot of awakward silence the whole car ride, weird. ....We finally got to the hotel.

"Home sweet home." I said opening the door.

"That car ride seemed to last forever." She said as she walked around looking inside.

"Yeah...So um, what do you wanna do?" I asked her.

She sat on the edge of the bed and just looked at me. "Whatever you want."

I looked at her for a moment...then I walked over to the tv. "Lets watch some tv." She agreed and she laid on the bed as I sat on floor flicking the channels. "What do you want to watch?" I asked her while still changing the channels. "Lets watch porn." I paused and quickly turned around to look at her, she looked at me with a stern face with a sexual look in her eyes. "You serious?" I asked shuttering. "Haha, No.. I wasn't." She said laughing more. "Y-You s-serious...should've seen your face though." She laughed more. I threw a pillow at her. We went at it for awhile, wacking each other with the pillows..making a bunch of noise. We finally decided to play video games. We played Smash Brothers, she's pretty good...beat me a few times. We got tired after an hour of playing and got in the bed, I asked if she wanted to stay the night--she agreed. I knew I wanted to go to sleep and I couldn't sleep with the lights on, so I turned them off. We laid by each other...

"D." I said breaking the silence.

"Yea?" She said moving around, so now she was facing me.

"Can I hold you in my arms?" I nervously asked.

I felt her moving closer to me. "Sure hun."

I opened my arms and she fell in. She smelled soo good and she was so soft. It was killing me...In so many ways, I found myself fighting the animal in me; trying to tame the beast.

"Do you do this with all your fans?" She said as she looked up at me.

I kissed her forehead. "No, Only for you bay bay."

She smiled and kissed me back on my cheek....We pillow talked for awhile, then we drifted away to sleep together....

Aww She makes him nervous...

=)
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Chris`cinder[ella] wrote:

Aww Monicka! I liked your story so much I joined this board hahah. Hurry up and run this!

Hehe. Awwwe thankx you!
And yes I shall run iit soon.
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RUN IT!!

The next day I woke up and she was gone, like it was magic. I'm not a heavy sleeper so how could she of just up and left like that without me noticing? Or was it that I was dreaming all along?

I laid there for a moment and then noticed a note besides me, it read:




I laughed to myself, So I wasn't dreaming. I got up to get in the shower.

[cell rings]


I jumped out, turning the water off while putting a towel on at the same time. Then went into the other room.

"Hello?" I said.

"Yo...Nigga, How was it??" Someone anxiously said thru the other end of the phone.

"Chozin?" I replied laughing. "Nigga what are you talking about?"

"Big Rob said he saw a pretty chick sneak out yo room this early morning." Chozin answered.

"Well damn, nothing gets past yall huh?" I asked, light weight mad.

"Surely it doesn't, So don't even get mad Chris. You know how nosey we are anyway." Chozin reminded me.

"Lol, True." I agreed.

"Soooooo." Chozin said waiting for my answer.

"Soooo what?" I said smiling.

"Don't even front Mr.Brown, I can hear you smiling from Wall To Wall." He responded.

"Shut up dude." I said.

"So I'm guessing you not going tell huh?" Chozin asked disappointed.

"All you need to know is that I had fun." I snickered. I heard Chozin was about to say something so I cut him off. "But I'm in the middle of a shower, So I shall call you back. Buh bye." Then I hung up smiling because I know him and B-Shaw hate when I do that. I then went forth to continue my shower.

I got out and put on my clothes, I paused for a minute because it felt like I wasn't alone. It was an erry feeling, but I shook it off and finished the process. I came out the bathroom, I noticed I missed like 6 calls from an unknown number. But it was private so I didn't know who to call back. So I decided to get on myspace since I haven't been on in weeks. I had a bunch of comments from some fans, but there were two comments that made me wonder.







I thought to myself "Damn, WTF".....I didn't accept them. I set my commenting thing to private to prevent all those spam messages. I deleted the comments but didn't deleted the person off my list, I never do that, reguardless what they say. I mean its only the computer.

I noticed Omarian was on, So I decided to write him and tell him what just happened, I copied and pasted the comments on the message. I send it and like 5 minutes later he wrote back.












After O's and mine convo, I decided to get off. I couldn't stand groupies but it came with the territory because just like the other girls, they're fans too, I guess. I sat out on the patio just daydreaming, then my cell started to ring.

"Hello?" I answered.

No one said anything.

"Hello." I said again.

No one still didn't say anything.

"Hello?" I repeated irritated.

I heard someone breathe hard thru the phone and hung out.

I shook my head at that ignorant person, and looked at the phone again. It was private....

Uh Oh! Chris got a stalker!!

Post More!! Post More!!

The next day I got ahold of Destanie and told her what was going on...

"So you have a stalker huh?" Destanie teased.

"Shut up, That ain't funny. Chick might be crazy." I explained to her.

"Good crazy or bad crazy?" She giggled.

"Bad." I said.

"Aww, calm down Chris: It's just the internet--Whats the worse that could happen?" She asked.

"Yeah, you're right. I was thinking the same thing when I told Omari but he said I should delete 'the ugly psycho board' as he put it. But I didn't." I told her.

"Haha, and you were about to take advice from a guy who hasn't had real fans since B2K years..." She laughed. "He would be lucky if he had a fan, even if she was psycho and ugly." She continued to laugh.

"Ouch, thats cold..." I told her.

"Haha, babe. I'm just saying. Groups always think, especially the lead singer, that its okay to do solo things...In though it may work, alot of times it doesn't...Like hmmm, B2k. Lil Fizz is a good rapper but he's under-rated; People over look him more now then they did when they were still a group...BackStreet Boys;; Hahahah enough said...Only person that came out good from them is Justin."

"I thought Justin was apart of N'Sync?" I asked.

"Ha, oh..well---My point exactually." She laughed "And hmm remember 3LW better yet 2LW; I still think the one they kicked off (the orignal) sounded better than both them skinny heffas put together, She could in my opinion take over the R&B charts if she wanted to if she came out with her own solo album--Get hooked up with the right people and she could be on a roll, Anyway...Well they tried solo too, realized they couldn't do it. So now look at them? What they doing now? Cheetah Girls and shit." She explained.

"Damn Des, you could really be the perfect magazine editor writer." I told her.

"Lol, Thanks. Someone else told me that too." She replied. "And since I'm still on this subject- Lets not forget about the infamous Destiny Child." Before she went any futher I decided to cut her off. Listening to her talk today made me feel like I was talking behind my friend's backs.

"Hold up now..." I said.

"Hahah, Don't worry--I'm not gon roast your precious B too much." She joked.

"Well let's not roast at all, she's already the perfect tan." I said seriously.

"Did I strike a nerve?" She asked.

"No.." I said quickly.

"Well, well, well....I think I did." She laughed. "Well its not my fault she's too commercialized these days." She continued.

"B is not..." I said before she cut me off.

"Chris, Lets be real here....Whos spoke modeling for Pepsi, Loreal, along with other commercials, in every video with Jay-Z? Or maybe he's in everyone of hers, on the cover of S.I., who basically made a video to every song on her B-Day album:: all at once!....."

"Do I detect jealousy?" I cut her off.

"Hahah, jealous?" She said. "Look Chris in the beginning- even still- I'm not trying to start a heated debate over this Beyonce...All I'm saying is that she's the new American entertainment walking billboard....She's everywhere! And I'm not even over exaerrating; She literally is..I'm not saying I don't listen to her music;;Because I do. But she's too commeralized...And as much as you must love her and how much you deny it, the fact of the matter is that she is....Flat out." She explained.

"Yea..." I mumbled, agreeing.

"Yea..." She laughed mocking me. "Look this has been fun, but I have a jet--My break is over. Gotta make this money." She told me.

"Don't let it make you." I laughed.

She laughed. "Okay then silly."

Then we hung up....Even when we agrue, I can't stay mad. And I must admit, her talking about B made me a bit defensive...okay alot. But I wonder what Destanie would've really said if she knew I didn't really care for Beyonce that much, lol. But her bluntness was oddly sexy...Lol.

((((Sorry for the short add but its now 9:38AM my time and I been literally online for hours [like maybe more than 6;;more than likely more.] typing up new adds for my first story "God Sent Me An Angel" [[yes! its FINALLY up, sorry for the wait.]] and Iam mad tired...like for real, lol. But when I re-boot my energy, another add will be up. So keep your eyes locked. Thanks.))))

Me go to bed now, good night! (morning, whatever, lol!)

U mention my baby Fizz!! and That is soooo ture!!

Heh.

RuN iiT

A couple weeks has pasted by and I haven't really heard from Destanie. Lately she's been ghost from times on out, I would receieve a call from her one day then I won't hear from her for another week or so. I'm wondering what she's been up to. And even though I'm getting ready to go back on tour to promote my second album, Exclusive; along side 2XL, LAX Boys, Drake and the boy Trey Songz. So with all the planning for the concerts I been pretty busy, so I haven't had much time to miss D much. Even though I do think about her 24/7....I really think this girl is taking a toll on me. Its starting to irritate me because I haven't felt like this since my ex from high school.


I had some free time on my hands so I decided to touch base with my mom. So I made a surprise visit.

J: Hey Chris!

C: Hey momma, What was you doing? [I said as I walked in.]

J: Nothing really just sitting here watching HGTV trying to come up with some ideals on how to re-fix up the kitchen.

C: Oooh. Okay, thats nice.

J: Whats wrong Chris? I hear something in your voice, seeing it on your face and its not right.

C: Its Destanie.

J: W-what? Who is that? When did you get a girlfriend and not tell me??

C: Haha. Momma, chill--She's not my girlfriend. Well, I mean...Yeah she's not.

J: Um. Are you sure about that? Because you don't even sound like you know.

C: Honestly, I don't know. She's been giving me mixed signals.

J: Hmm, how so? Is she one of your back-up dancers?

C: Because she hardly calls me. I mean its like, I don't know....And no, she isn't one of my dancers.

J: Haha...Aww my baby has puppy love popping off.

C: MA...

J: Haha, I'm just saying, you haven't spoken like this since...

C: Yeah, I know but she's in the past.

J: I know baby...But maybe this Destanie girl is just busy..Like you, you now know what it feels like to be on the other side of the relation(GCO).

C: Its not a relationship ma. I don't know what we are.

J: You really like her huh?

C: Yeah, I guess I do.

[Mama Joyce gives him a look.]


C: Okay..Correction, I KNOW I do.

J: So what are you going to do about it?

C: I don't know...I guess ask her to be my girl. If I ever hear from her again.

J: Okay...But, How did ya'll meet?

C: ....A fan letter.

J: Excuse me? How did, Um. Better explain that.

C: She was/is a fan..She sent a letter, and from that one letter is how it all got started.

J: Chris.... [she shook her head and looked down.]

C: What?

J: Chris, you know exactly what...You know what me and Tina both told you about getting involved with fans...

C: I know ma, but she's different.

J: Chris, baby, how are you so sure about that?

C: Wait a minute.. [I pulled the letter out my back pocket then handed it to her.]

[Mama Joyce sat there and read the letter, then looked at her picture.]

C: Well...?

J: Well, She's pretty. But can I be honest with you?

C: Like you always are, lol.

J: It sounds like a bunch of bullshit.

C: MA!

J: No Chris you said I could be honest. And you know when I'm honest, I am frankly blunt....You grown right?

C: Yeah, I am but..

J: Well, lets be on our grown up about this. I was a woman first before I am your mother, and set aside the mother protection I will always have for you. From a woman's perpective, A girl will do anything and say anything to get next to their favorite celebrity. And you being a singer in the industry for a few years now, you should be hip to this already.

C: You're right ma, but Destanie..

J: Could be very much like the rest of them. Pooh, I am not trying to keep you from having a girlfriend, I am only looking out for you- Showing you the world for how it really is and the people in it can be crazy as hell.

C: I know ma...I don't know what to do, I am so confused now...She seems so different though.

J: Baby, you are grown now so I can't hold your hand every step of the way anymore. So I have to let you make your own mistakes, then hopefully learn from them wisely. I'm not saying Destanie is a mistake but I am not saying going that route would be the best choice either. Follow your heart but use your mind to guide you clearly about it. Be careful okay?

C: I will ma, and thank you for this talk. I really needed your wisdom in my ear.

J: Thats what I'm here for Chris. Wait a minute, don't you have a meeting about the touring schedule today with Tina and the Davis company, along with the people who's sponsering it?

C: Man, I completely forgot about that meeting. Shoot, thanks ma..I'll see or call you later...[I also ran out the house but doubled back to give her a kiss on the cheek.]

J: Haha, bye.

Mama always know how to make me think...But I'm not sure this time. I heard and listened to everything my mom was saying and I completely understand where she's coming from. But...I really really like Destanie, I want this to work..I'm tired of being single. I love the rest of my fans, I wish they would just understand I need to have a personal/love life too. In this industry I get so lonely, I mean I know I have friends and family..but there's those moments in time where you need someone; someone special to share these cherishable times with. And I know I haven't know her for a lifetime, but she seems like one of those rare girls that you wouldn't mind using that time to get to know every aspite of her. My head spins thinking of you...Could I be seriously falling in love with?? Nah nah, can't be. I remember I told her I loved her before but I didn't mean it in that way...I meant as a fan/celebrity type vibe. I hope she knew that....I finally made it to the meeting, and I wasn't late either. Good, lol. But I was distant in the process, I could barely remember what was being said...Come on Chris snap out of it. Look up.

T: CHRIS?!

C: Huh, huh. What happened?

T: Are you okay?

C: Hmm, I'm fine. Did I miss something?

T: Uhh, yeah. We were asking your input on how you wanted the layout of the entertrance to be for the concert.

[I finally jumped back into reality, and felt pretty dumb.]

C: Oooh, I'm sorry. Can I hear what your ideals were again? And then we can collaberate on it together.

Man: Okay, I was thinking that we start off with a big bomb. You know something real "exclusive"....Lots of smoke and whatnot.

C: Okay, yeah. Then I could come out the floor when the fans least expect it, you know have the dancers dancing real crazy around floor entertrance, then I could pop out in the middle....Like the "Jack-In-The-Box".

[Everybody laughed.]

Man: Aight, I like that, ha.

C: Coo.

Woman: What song should we start with?

C: Probably "Gimme That", start the crowd off crunk.

T: Okay, I like that.


[After like an hour or so we finally finished the meeting, I think it went good, A lot of things got done and handled. Which was real good, especially since the tour starting date is like around the corner.]

THE FIRST DAY OF THE TOUR;
......TORONTO, Canada.


I was so nervous today, like it was my first concert ever. I just felt so pressured to be the best of my craft all the time. I wanted to take a break, just to slow it down right quick. You know look at the bigger picture but I knew right now I couldn't I needed to prepare to go on the stage.

...I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around it and was Chozin. "Yo man you okay?" he asked as everyone came together.

"Oh yeah, I'm cool. Just meditating." I responded with a smile.

"Aight man, Let's get showed so we can give T-town the crazy show they paid for." Chozin replied signaling everyone to get closer for prayer.

[Everyone held hands and bowed their heads.]

"Father, We come to you tonight asking that you bless and enhance all our talents, perfecting our every move, every note...." I said before someone came out of nothing and said.

"5 Minutes til showtime ya'll." The stage manager said. I nodded my head then quickly finished up the prayer.


We all ran on stage. The energy was so crazy. It was like an out-of-body experience, I mean its like this all the time but everytime always feels like the first. Everyone was really doing their thing. Inbetween the singing and dancing I wasn't paying attention to how much time was flying pass, my segmint of the show was almost over. We finally slowed it down, did something for the ladies.

"Okay ya'll we gone slow it down a bit, something for the ladies...I see some couples out here too. So fellas grab yah girls and single ladies grab yourselves." I implied, the audience laughed.

"But you know what? I can't do this alone. I need a special lady myself to help me thru this. Would any of you beautiful girls like to come up here and assist me?"

[All the girls screamed, even the ones that weren't alone. Their fellas just looked at them, and I just laughed.]

I looked around the whole crowd, but I wasn't looking for the girl who screamed the loudest or the one who did what she had to, to get my attention. But I was looking for the one who wanted to come up here but was too shy to do anything....I finally glanced over to my right, There stood this girl who had the most bashful, biggest smile I ever saw. She was the same skin complexion as I was and from what I saw she had green eyes...She was a certified dime.

"You!" I said as I looked at her in her eyes, Everyone turned around to see who I was talking about. The girl looked to both sides of her then looked down.

"The pretty lady with the brown curly hair wearing the orange halter top." I said trying to assure her I was referring to her. She pointed to herself, I nodded my head then got someone to escort to the center stage. I helped her get in the chair that was standing in the middle of the stage.

"Hey sweetie, What is your name?" I asked.

"Um...It's Belinda." She quietly spoke as she tripped over her words.

"Ah that's a beautiful name for a beautiful girl."

She turned red then thanked me.

"Baby I just gotta ask one thing though...Can I take you down?"

For all the fans that caught on to what I was about to sing, They screamed so...The music started play in the background as I started to "woo" Belinda, I could feel her body shaking.

"Here we are all alone in dis room
And grl i kno where to start and wut we gone do
i'll take my tiime we'll b all night grl
so get readii babe i got plans 4 me and u [[oooo]]

dis aint ma first time but babygrl we can pretend
we cud bump and grind
grl tonight will never end

let me take u down
i realli wanna take u down
and sho u wut im about
can i take u now
ya bodii bodii [[ohhh]]
ya bodii bodii up and down
so dont stop grl qet it
quit playin wit it
cant wait no mo
i wanna take u down
i realli wana take u down
take u down
[[yeeeaa]]

pretty grl take it off in dis room
no time to waste grl u kno wut we came to do...."


As I was singing I was grinding on her, doing my famous "Pelvic Thrust"...Haha, yeah I drove her crazy. She pretty much fainted, all the girls were screaming but Belinda couldn't say anything. I ain't cocky or nothing but I know I can work it out...lol. When the song was over I told her she was great and gave her a rose, then I helped her off stage.

I can't lie though Belinda was beautiful...Even though I didn't get her number, I did catch up with her after I exited off stage when Trey Songz got on, to take a picture with her so she could remember this day better and also to have proof to all her friends, especially the ones who wouldn't believe her that she got serenaded by me...You know how some girls can be.


The concert was over, It was soo crazy. I enjoyed every moment of it, I honestly didn't know Toronto could get down like that. I was highly mistaken, lol...I was getting tired trying to keep up with them, ha.

It was pouring raining outside, I couldn't see where I was running to. I was trying to run to the tour bus so I can finally get some sleep but instead I think I actually ran into a tree. I was fell straight to the ground, busting my ass. Haha, I wanted to laugh but I was in too much pain. Then I heard someone shout my name, being it that it was raining hard I couldn't see who it was. Then I felt someone reach down to help me up, helping me dust the dirt off me..even though it didn't matter I was still wet, lol. I turned around to at least attempt to figured out who it was...

"Destanie?" I said in shock and disbelief.

I love Jared... were not dateing anymore but still have feeling for him!