Have you loved someone but didnt know how to show it? You felt so insecure because even though you knew the one person you cared about was never gone leave you and you tried your best to not mess up...Well it was like that with me, but see I messed up too many times. And I think the last time was the final time....there was no going back. I had a good thing but after my actions it went wrong, its just completely gone. I miss my baby.....



My name is Tyrone Evans and this is my story......


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Chapter One.


Let me take you to the beginning; when everything was great.
....For starters, my ex-girlfriend[but actual girlfriend then] is named Monicka. She was everything I needed in a woman. She wasnt conceited nor "ghetto", she was the exact opposite. In fact in the beginning it annoyed me because she was highly insecure. I had to prove to her that she was worth it and once I did- it was all good. She was so beautiful and I really mean that. I mean she didnt believe me alot of the time when I told her but she was and still is, I swear everyday that I see her til this day she keeps getting more gorgeous. She had a smile that made me forget all my problems. I felt so safe in her arms, I know I may sound like a bitch when I say that but I dont care; because I did. She had a soft spoken smoove baby voice, that shit turned me on. She had a voice that you wouldnt mind doing some things over the phone...Haha, but enough about that. Truth be told, we never had sex before. I respected her that much. She plans on waiting for marriage mainly because of her moral values....Her not giving it up made me want her more. And normally I was the type that would refuse to continue to be with a chick if she wasnt giving it up. Thats how I knew she was wifey, because Im going to be honest not to show cocky but Im a good looking cat--most girls were drawn to me because of my looks. Im about 6`7, I got bronzed brown skin, I have dark emerald green eyes, I have jet black hair; I have dreads that comes a little past my shoulders, Im orignally from the Virgin Islands-so I have a deep accicent, Im also extremely toned---You know how LL Cool J body looks?....Well thats me all the way. Oh and did I forget to mention I was "packing"?, Lol. Yeah, if i say so myself---I got the whole package, and the ladies kept comming.....Until I meant Monicka. I meant her at the gym, she was there with her friends. She was working out and the sweat dripping off her body, whew---I was like wow. Man, I had to get on that. I have to admit from first sight I was really trying to fuck. Baby girl was nice, about 5 foot...hazel eyes..long eye lashes...long curly/wavy brown hair...golden complexion...lucious lips...basically the face of an angel and the body of a goddess, she was stacked like stallion...Man, I lost my track of thought. Um, oh yeah. I admit my attentions in the beginning was to fuck but once we went on our first date and I really listened to her, she had such a sweet personality---very charming in a coy type of way. Man oh man, she had a way of getting to me. Oh and my family loved her, especially my mother...she looked at her as her already daughter-in-law. Monicka always helped out in the kitchen on holidays, etc...Oh man, baby girl could cook!...I am not playing. She was everything, I wanted to buy a ring and pop the question. I was going to, but I fucked up......

Damn I kinda feel bad for him that he fucked up!

We were together for 5 years, since we were 20. And believe me it wasnt easy getting with her. It took me a year to finally get her to go on a real date with me, I mean we "kicked it" before. But my niggas were with us. I grew impatient for a long time, cause what nigga you know that would wait on your ass for a year, if you aint really mean something to him?....But anyway, she finally said yes on my birthday, during Valentine Day weekend. I took her to a fancy Italian restaurant; cause I knew that was her favorite. I did everything a gentleman was suppose to, even though that was out of my character. But when it came to her, I went the distance and not gave a fuck. During the past 2 years that we were together, we were like newlyweds...just all over each other, not sexually but we were loving each other. Thats right I said it; I love her....Notice I didnt say "loved", because I still do. But around the third year I started to fuck up. And looking back on it, I cant even honestly tell you why I did it. I guess it was a nigga thing. But I sho as hell regret that shit. Hmmm, let me think back on when and how it got started.....Oh yeah, my junior year in college, when I really started to hang around Monicka's friends. There was this one girl named Felisha but everyone just called her FeFe. She was sexy hands down. She was about 5`11, dark skinned, had a petite frame, brown eyes, short brown hair...She was like the girls back on the island at home. My type. Her and Monicka knew each other since high school.....Anyway, one night Monicka had the flu and asked me if I minded to go get her assignment from FeFe at her place, me not thinking of it. I went. Once I got there; there Felisha was standing in front of the door wearing nothing but a tight ass white tee and scretchy booty shorts, I starred at her for a minute but once I realized I was starring I put my eyes back in my head. She knew she was doing, cause she knew ahead of time that I was comming over cause Monicka called her and told her. She couldve put on some clothes knowing I was comming over, her friends man.....But she told me to sit on the couch until she printed out the papers for Monicka. I did, trying to focus my attention out the window---to keep me from looking her way. She was walking all up in front of me, bending down in front of me....the last time she did it she looked back at me and smiled. Then she did the wrong thing, she sat on my lap then started grinding on me while licking my neck, once she whispered in my ear she wanted me..It was curtains from there. I gave that little hoe what she wanted. I grabbed her by the waist and flipped her over and fucked the shit out of her, putting her ass to sleep on the floor. I killed her cause I swore for a moment she was unconscience. After I went to work I cleaned myself up in her bathroom and got Monicka's assignment and walked out the door, going straight back to Monicka's dorm like nothing happened.

The morning after it happened, I woke up feeling hella bad. But I brushed it off cause I knew if I was to tell her what had happened, we'd be over just like that and I couldnt have that. So I lied and kept right on lying, to the point I got caught up in them. Months went by, Felisha and I still were messing around with each other. Alot of times I remember we messed around in front of Monicka's face...We had our own little codes, we were slick with that shit. Felisha was so good that she deserved an Oscar. Im not a heartless nigga, I care about Monicka-I really do, but she was too much of a goody goody...The animal in me desired some mystery, some kinky sex....And Monicka was...well-predictable, I knew her every move, I learned it quite well. And well...Felisha wasn't, she didnt mind fucking behind the grocery store or getting it on in the aisle of the library. I think thats what turned me on and kept me going back for more.....Monicka was too reserved.....UGH, what am I saying?....I wanted to marry Monicka....

It was a week away from Father's Day and inbetween Monicka's work schedule and mine, today was the only good day we had to go shopping together for our father's presents...But the day of father's day was also Felisha's birthday. We were still talking with each other and she expected me to be there for her birthday. But on the flipside she knew what day that was and knew I couldn`t be there. So who do I pick?

"Baby do you like this?" Monicka said as she picked up a Rolex.

"Yeah babe, I like it....Its fly, but are you gone buy that?" I asked in concern.

"Yeah, why not?" She said as if nothing was wrong.

"How much is that?" I asked looking at her all serious.

She just looked at me and laughed. But I wasnt playing. Im a cheap ass, and she knew it.

"I aint playing girl." I replied.

"Relax cheap ass, I was just looking at it...I already know how you are." She said as she snickered.

"Haha..Funny." Nothing but sarcastism came out of my mouth.

"Awww, baby...I sowwie." Monicka replied as she walked over to me "babying" me.

"Naw, dont talk to me." I mumbled as I walked away.

"Well forget you too." She walked the other way to continue to look for a present for my pops....See I was shopping for her dad and she was shopping for mine. As I watched her walk away I had a flashforward that she was walking out of my life. I rushed over to her and grabbed her around her waist from behind, kissing her on her neck and slightly tickling her. "Im sorry baby, you know I was playing." I pleaded.

She turned looking at me smiling "I know babe, I was playing with you too...Now come on, lets finish shopping." She kissed me and grabbed my hand strolling down the aisles of the men's department. We finally found what we were looking for, she bought my pops this Karl Kani outfit and I bought her dad a Cool Water set....I honestly couldnt think of what to get him because this man had everything. So Monicka told me that was his favorite cologune, figured Id play it safe.

We were on our way out the door and Monicka stopped looking over in the baby section.

"Mo, why did you stop?" I said trying to see what she saw.

"Isnt that Felisha?" She said still looking over there. I said nothing. "Yeah, that is her." She walked over to her leaving me behind, I slowly trailed the distance from her...I did not want to see Felisha, not in the daylight....

"Hey FeFe girl!" Monicka said as she greeted Felisha all excited. Felisha looked up smiling as if she was surprised.

"Hey girl! What you doing here?" She hesitated to ask.

"Buying father's day presents with Tyrone." Monicka replied holding up the shopping bags. She smiled and paused for a moment. "What you doing in the baby section?" She asked looking suspecious.

"Umm, no real reason. Just browsing. Saw something cute and wanted to check it out." Felisha smiled nervously. "Umm...I have to go, see yah....Call me." She jetted off. Monicka watched her walk very quickly out the store and turned around to look at me. "What the hell was that about?" I just shook my head because I was just as clueless as she was. We just brushed it off and went on with our day.

Later that night I received a call.

"What it is?" I said without looking at the phone.

"I need to talk to you...where are you?" I already knew who it was.

"Im busy right now, Im in my dorm...Doing work." Looking over at my desk, watching my books....Knowing I was lying my ass off.

"Stop lying Ty, come on...I need to talk to you." Felisha moaned thru the phone....It was night time but I still aint really feel like talking to her nor seeing her for that manner. I knew she only wanted to fuck. Dont get me wrong I love fucking but I was getting tired....Tired of cheating on Monicka.

"TY!!" Felisha yelled thru the phone.

"Damn girl what!?" I yelled back. I was getting frustrated with this chick, in the beginning it was fun, but the girl was getting on my fucking nerves these days.

"I need to see you.....please." Felisha pleaded with much seriousness in her voice.

"Iight girl, Im on my way." She let out a grateful thank you and I hung up. I drove over to her place, when I pulled up she was already sitting on the porch on the phone. She looked up and saw me so she hung up. She hugged me, I hugged her back and looked at her.

"Now what you begged me to come over for?....You want this dick huh?" I smiled. She smiled back looking me up and down. But she soon shook her head and sat down on the steps, putting her head in her hands...

"Whats wrong FeFe?" I got real concerned and sat next to her, holding her.

She looked up at me tears streaming down her face. Her words couldnt really come out. But once they did...I grew speechless.

"Tyrone....I-I-I'm pregnant."

My mouth literally dropped. Nothing came out. She expected me to say something, even if I was going to say the baby aint mine...something. But I couldnt because I knew there was a big chance that the baby is mine, because we never used a condom....She got up and ran into the house crying...I could tell she didnt plan this out...So I got up 15 minutes later and went after her....

But....I'm a dead man.....

What the fuck am I going to do?????!!!!!!!!!!

First off...whooooo Tyrone sounds sexy az hell!! And lemme tell you I'm between 5'4" & 5'5" and I need more then my tippy toes to hug a man thas 6'7"!!!

LMFAO!! He put her to sleep on the floor!! LMAO! Dayum Ty!

FeFe told him she was preggy and gets up to run in the house but he gets up later...15 mins lata! LMAO!! I would of been mad! I think I would of came back outside in 5mins and cursed him out!

0o0o Tryone in trouble!!

FeFe better hope Monicka don't beat that baby outta her.

15 mins LMAO!...Damn!

As I walked into Felisha's house I saw her sitting in the corner in a fetal position, rocking back and forth; crying. I never saw her like this. I walked over to her and tried to touch her but she moved quickly as a sign she didn't want me to "comfort" her. I sat by her on the floor because I didn't know what to say. She finally looked at me, her face was wet...covered with tears and her eyes were blood shot red.

"It took you long enough you dumb fuck." She said grawling at me.

"I came in, didn't I?" I remarked back.

"15 minutes later." She put her head back in her knees. I felt so bad, I placed my hand on her back. She jumped and shook her head. She turned to look at me again while resting her head still on her knees.

"You promised me you'd leave her." She stated as tears streamed down her face. She paused. "You said you wanted a baby with me."

I thought about it, one night when we were fucking, I was in the moment and I did say that....Shit.

"Um. I'm sorry." I kinda said it as a question.

"You sound unsure....Your lying ass ain't sorry. You wanted this, me- The fuck buddy and Monicka- Your comfort zone. I know Monicka is a virgin and doesn't plan on losing it until marriage. You being the guy you are, you can't stay away for long. You wanted the happiness and pleasure all in one bowl." She yelled at me. She was right, about everything. I felt hella bad.

"It ain't like that." I said.

"The hell it ain't....Shit can't happen if it doesn't involve your precious Mo, the perfect one....But if only she knew you were cheating. If only she knew how big of a hoe you were." She shouted out. She stood up and went toward the phone. I had a feeling she was about to call Monicka. I got up after her and walked to her. I grabbed her and pushed her against the wall.

"Who you calling?" I looked at her.

"Let go of me!" She said.

"Bitch, I said who were you calling?" I asked her, demanding an answer.

"No one." She replied a bit scared.

"No one has a phone number?" I started to get mad. She didn't say anything.

I got mad but I didn't understand why. I guess because I was having a baby with a chick I didn't even love. A woman with no plans in her life. I was mad because I wasn't having my first child with Monicka. I let go of Felisha and left the house without saying a word. As I walked out the door I heard Felisha crying loudly but I didn't pay any mind to her, I just left. I needed to clear my head. So I drove around thinking on what should I do. I thought about it and decided to just bluntly tell Monicka and deal with the consequences later.

Once I got to Monicka's dorm door, I hesitated to knock. But once I did she greeted me with open arms like she hasn't seen me in years. It made me feel more bad to tell her the truth. This woman really loved me, and I love her. But I go and do this.

"Hey baby!" She smiled at me. "I thought you'd be sleep by now hun, since you got to go to work extra early tomorrow." She closed the door after I walked in and sat at the computer. "What brings you by?"

"Um...We...I mean I have to tell you something." She didn't say anything else right away because she noticed I was serious. So she just gave me that okay tell me look.

I thought to myself it was now or never. I took a deep sigh.

"Felisha is pregnant." An excited look flashed across her face but she had a confused expression.

"Thats great!" Was the first thought she said. "Why are you first to tell me and not her?" She said confused. "But how...um, when did you find out?" She asked anxiously and more confused. She paused for a second. ".....Wait a minute. Why do you sound so disappointed and upset about it?"

I just looked at her, I didn't know how to answer that. She just looked at me, wondering why I haven't said anything yet.

"Ummm. Because." Was all I could think to say.

She looked at me like I was stupid. "Ummmm. Because what?" She said mimicking me.

"Because Felisha's baby might be mine, that's why I'm upset."

The room grew still. Felt like the walls were bleeding- that's how deep the tension was. Then all of a sudden I felt a sharp pain go across the front of my face....Monicka pounded the fuck out of me. I couldn't do nor say anything.

"Oh...you aint got nothing to say now huh?" Monicka noted as she was trying her hardest to not cry.

"I'm sorr---" She cut me off.

"Oh save the bullshit Tyrone Evans." Wow, she said my whole government. Yeah she's mad.

I tried to hug her and let her know I really was sorry but she pushed me away.

"Get out." She emotionlessly said.

"What? Wait..." I tried to plead with her.

"Just go, okay?" She told me.

"Naw, I'm not leaving." I replied.

"Yes, you are!" She yelled as she opened the door directing me to exit out.

I closed the door and locked it.

"Monicka I am not going nowhere." I assured her.

"Yes you are! You told me that you loved me!" She responded.

"I do!" I tried assure her.

"No the hell you don't." She said.

"Don't tell me how I feel okay." I said.

"I'm only stating the obvious Tyrone, you don't love me." She told me.

"I do." I kept trying to plead with her. I truly fucked up. How am I going to get her to stay?

"Then why did you cheat??? With one of my friends!!!?...Well ex-friend." She said.

"I don't know." I replied.

"I know why, its about the sex. Isn't it. Just because I wouldn't fuck, you were willing to go fuck someone else and risk our relationship. You are sucha dog face nigga!" She said crying. "Get out!!!"

But I didn't move, I couldn't lost the love of my life. And due to my desperation- I did something I regret to this day. I back handed her across her face, I watched her fall to the floor holding her face. She looked at me in disbelief. Her tears stopped because she was so surprised. I couldn't believe I did that, I didn't mean that.

"You hit me?" She started to tear up again. She looked up at me angrily. Then she bite my leg hard. I had on basketball shorts that night. So she bite through flesh. That pissed me off, so I bended down and slapped her again.

"Don't you ever do that again, you got it?" I demanded of her.

"Get out before I call the police!" She yelled.

I slapped her again and told her to stop yelling. I got down to her level and looked dead into her eyes while I grabbed her close to me.

"You are not leaving me!" I angrily whispered to her.

She spit in my face....Where I'm from that's a sign of disrespect. For a moment I forgot she was Monicka...I forgot she was a female...And I balled up my fist and I punched her straight in her mouth.

"You lost your mind Monicka!" I replied.

"No! You don lost your motha fuckin mind!" She shouted.

"Damn right, and if I lose you- I'm completely gone lose it." I told her.

"Too late." She mumbled.

"Speak up." I said slapping her again. I busted her lip wider this time.

"Why are you doing this?" She whined holding her lip.

"Because YOU ARE NOT leaving me!!!!! Got it!!!?" I told her without an option of saying no.

Scared, she nodded her head okay. I gave her a hug and kissed her on the forehead, told her I loved her. Helped her clean up and watched her go to sleep and left cause I needed to go to work tomorrow.

oh hell mutha freakin nah!! Ya got one time to lay hands on me and I swear fa goodness I'm swinging with the closest object I can find and I'm callin the cops and pressing charges!

Chapter 2


A year has went past, Felisha had her son and named him Tyler. I took a paternity test and it came back positive; Tyler was my son...He looked just like me but he had Felisha's eyes. I grew attached to him quickly, I enjoyed being a father. Me and Monicka were still together but I had my moments where I found myself with Felisha. I was torn between both of them but I knew I love Monicka. I also found myself still hitting Monicka after this past year, but I've hit Felisha as well. I had a problem, a serious problem. But I don't know how to contain myself.

One day I was on my way to Monicka's apartment and heard a conversation going on; Felisha was there...They were arguing about something as they always do, but this time I didn't bother to break it up I just listened because they were disputing over something I never heard them talking about.

"I don't know why you're still with him" Felisha said with a nasty attitude.

"The same reason you are." Monicka calmly replied.

"I love him Monicka. He's mine you may've had him once but I got him all the time. Its funny how a chick will do anything to get and keep a man. Especially someone's seconds." Felisha smartly answered.

Monicka just laughed. "Ain't that the tea kettle calling the pot black."

"What the hell that suppose to mean?" Felisha questioned.

"Its something my grandmother used to say to my grandfather alot." Monicka responded.

"But what it mean?" Felisha asked back.

"You're full of shit!" Monicka shouted.

"Excuse me bitch?" Felisha shouted back.

"I said you're full of shit. How can you come up in MY house and tell me how I'm trying to take YOUR supposely seconds when bitch in the beginning he was MY man. And last time I checked he's still public with me....And what was he with you? Huh? Tell me that!" Monicka said.

Felisha didn't say anything, she just looked at the floor.

"Exactually my point. You have nothing to say because you know I'm right. We were homegirls and you fucked my boyfriend and winded up pregnant, but I'm in the wrong here? No trick you is. Apparently it was a mistake to him reason why he came in like 15 minutes later." Monicka reminded her.

Felisha looked up. "What you say?"

"Oops, Bet you thought I ain't know. I'm wifey bitch- I know everything!" Monicka assured her.

"Okay, do you know he's still fucking me?" Felisha asked with a smile on her face.

"That's because you're an easy target. Bitch you need to get a clue. Just because he's fucking you, doesn't mean he loves you....Oh what, just because hes telling you that from time to time and maybe slipped up and said he wants you to have his baby....Dumb ass, do you how many girls fall for that shit on a day to day bases from a nigga?.. It ain't just you, so believe me it ain't you he loves...Its your pussy." Monicka answered. She paused for a minute. "You were my homegirl FeFe, what the hell happened? Why did you do this to me?" She questioned.

Felisha looked sad for a minute. At first she couldn't say anything...."I don't know Monicka, I'm sorry. But at some point I fell in love with your man...I had to get him, keep him." She replied.

"So you planned him getting you pregnant on purpose?" Monicka asked holding back her emotions. "But that doesn't excuse you for betraying our friendship. I thought we were best friends, hell like sisters. We promised we'd never let a nigga come inbetween us...."

"I know and I'm sorry....I didn't plan it, he said he wanted a baby so I let him cum in me, but only because he said so and I thought he was going to leave you for me." Felisha bluntly said.

"I guess you were wrong." Monicka responded then mumbled, "He hits me...Because he says he loves me and doesn't want to lose me. My ex friend fucks my boyfriend and gets pregnant, but swears she's sorry but until this day she still fucks him reguardless for the fact we are STILL together. Because of the continuous beatings, I don't even look the same and people were starting to notice and I couldn't focus anymore so I dropped out of college...Now my career has gone down the toliet with the rest of the shit thats going on in my life..."

Felisha cuts her off. "Bitch you think you the only one? He hits me too. But you need to suck it up and live with it. If you love that man then you need to deal with it, Look at me- I love him to death so I put up with it."

"Do you know how dumb you sound??" Monicka questioned very angry. "Oh look at me I love him and I love him beating me- My man loves me, him hitting me is his way of showing it." Monicka said mocking her. "You are one of the stupidest hoes I know."

"Stupidest ain't even a word." Felisha assured her.

Monicka shook her head. "Well the dictionary made an acception for you. Because it describes you quite clear."

Felisha shouted back. "I am so tired of you! You think you got it bad, you been like this since high school 'Aw poor me'...You ain't shit and ain't never going to be shit...Things happen because you allow them to, If you want to change things badly enough then change them and if you don't then shut the fuck up complaining!"

Monicka jumped up and smiled. "You're right Felisha...I am going to change. Starting now. Get the fuck out of my place."

"What?" Felisha said confused.

"I said get out, you ain't my friend no more nor is you my baby mama. So I don't have to deal or put up with your ass." Monicka smiled.

Felisha got in her face. "But I am Tyrone's baby mama, so you gone be seeing alot of me..Deal with it."

"Technicially no, Because I'm done with him...So he's all yours now....Hmm, the playa and the hoe- Perfect combo. Just hope Tyler doesn't grow up to be a back-stabbing stank ass trick like his parents." Monicka said.

Felisha was about to hit Monicka but she blocked her. "Hold up now FeFe, Remember something, you're getting everything you deserve...And I don't think Karma is done with you yet....So I suggest if you don't want lil Tyler growing up without a mother then I strongly advise you not to swing at me...Got it?"


----Before I let the conversation get anymore intense I walked in holding my son, We just came from the store. But I didn't know in the beginning that Felisha was coming over all early.

"Um hey ya'll...We back." I said unsure as I walked toward the living room where they were.

"Hey baby I'm ready to go." Felisha said as she got up and took Tyler out of my arms.

"Baby?" I questioned Felisha calling me that, especially in front of Monicka.

Monicka jumped in the conversation. "Yes- baby, Felisha is your girl now...See me and you are no more. Ya'll can have each other, I personally think ya'll is perfect for each other."

"Woah wait a minute where is this coming from?" I asked concerned.

"See Felisha and I had a long talk and she made me realize something...No matter how much you claim you love me; You still hit me and you still fuck her, You're with me when its convinent. And well I'm tired, tired of you...tired of seeing this hoe in my home and tired of pretending that things are good. I am unhappy and I plan on changing that. So goodbye, goodbye Tyrone and goodbye Felisha. Now get the hell out of my shit." Monicka said smiling.

Without giving me a chance. She packed my little things I had there of mine and Tylers. Threw me the box and showed us all to the door.

Chapter 3


A month has went past. I haven't talked to Monicka since that day. But I figured since this is what she wants, two can play at that game. But it was killing me because I missed the hell out the her and because of my frustrations I hit Felisha more, but the odd thing is that I believe she really enjoys it...I couldn't take it anymore, but I stayed with Felisha- We've been really coo lately dispite me hitting her. Then I get to see my son more so it works out. But I still thought about Monicka and wanted to know what she's been up. So I had an outsider follow her. Come to find out she's back into college, just a different college and she has an intern job and this law firm as a legal assistant. But the thing that bothered me was the fact I also heard she has a new boyfriend, some white boy. Heard he's studying medicine at the same college she goes to. I mean damn, its only been a month and she fucking around with someone else, a white person at that. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against white people or any other race. I just don't like the idea of interracial dating. I couldn't shake the thought that she might be fucking him, especially since she never fucked me...My world was spinning and I was losing my mind. My mind went on a rampage. Just because I lost the one girl who ever loved me the way she did. So I decided to go over there and see her, I know she said don't ever bother her again but I couldn't help myself.


*Knock, Knock*

Monicka opened the door with a big smile on her face but when she noticed it was me her whole expression changed.

"What you want nigga?" She asked not really caring.

"Damn, hello to you too." I said.

"Okay, hello...Now what you want?" She asked.

"Can we talk?" I pleaded.

"About what?" She said annoyed.

"Can I come in first? Then I'll tell you, Don't want the neighbors in my business." I told her. She let me in and we sat on the couch, well I did; She stood up.

"Now what you want?" She looked at me waiting for an answer.

I sighed. "We used to have so much fun. What happened to us?"

"Well lets see, you fucked Felisha- who at the time was my friend, got her pregnant, and then hit on me repeatedly because you said you loved me and made me misrable....Should I go on?" Monicka asked.

"No....Look, I'm sorry Monicka, very sorry." I told her.

"I don't wanna hear it. I've prayed on it and I've forgiven you. But this sho as hell don't mean I want you back; Oh no no." She assured me.

"Why? Cause you got a man already?" I asked.

"Yup, and he's good to me. He respects me. He cares about me. He treats me like a lady. He doesn't go around fucking my friends, and guess what? He doesn't hit me, doesn't even attempt nor try to. So yeah, he's on a better level than you." She said with a smile on her face.

I smacked my lips..."Do you fuck him?" I asked her bluntly.

"And what if I do?" She looked at me serious.

A rage went thru my body and I snapped. I slapped her harder than I ever have before because when I knocked her down she didn't even respond. I bent down and picked her up, taking her to her bedroom then threw her on the bed. She struggled the whole time, slapping me in the face and everything, but I couldn't feel it.

"Get off of me!" Monicka yelled. "I'm so tired of you, Leave me the fuck alone!"

"I bet you ain't tired of your little white piece of shit of a boyfriend fucking you is you?" I shouted as I ripped off her clothes.

"Get off of me Tyrone, or I'm going to scream loud enough for someone to hear me!" She said as she started to cry.

I punched her in the mouth. "You better not yell. I mean damn you can fuck a white man you just met, but you couldn't fuck me once out of the 6 years we been together. Thats fucked up. Well guess what you gone give me some today." I told her.

She looked me in the eyes with tears in her eyes. "Why are you doing this to me?"

"Because I love you and I'm not letting you go!" I said while still struggling with her.

"You don't love me Ty---" Before she could say anything else, I rammed my dick inside of her. Her mouth was still open; speechless. Her eyes got bigger and tears filled her face. She didn't move at first but then she started to scream. I quickly put a pillow over her face with one hand and forced it down as I continued to have sex with her. But she tried to get away so she grabbed the head board, trying to pull away while kicking aggressively. So I took my other hand and gripped her neck strongly, almost choking her, then I parted her legs more with my upper body and went in deeper. I could hear her squealing thru the pillow, but I couldn't stop, something inside me told me to keep going. Besides it felt so good and it was so tight. I keep stroking deep and long until I came. I went as far as I could in her and busted. I fell on top of her breathing very hard, but I didn't hear anything from her so I took the pillow off of her she had her eyes closed still sobbing. I finally took my dick out of her and turned her to the side and laid beside her, holding her. She never once moved.

"I never had sex with him." She mumbled under her tears.

"So you were still a---"

"Yeah Tyrone." She said as she cut me off crying.

Then I looked down and finally noticed all of blood everywhere.

"I am so sorry Monicka." I said as I finally realized what I just done.

She didn't say anything.

"Do you want me to help you clean up?" I asked.

"No, I just want you to get out." Monicka said as her voice began to sound hourse.


I slowly put on my clothes and walked over and kissed Monicka, then left.


A Week Later...


"I'm pregnant, are you satistified?" I heard a voice shout threw the phone.

"Monicka?" I said questioning on the other end of the phone.

"Yeah." She responded.


As gulity as I felt that I raped her a week ago, I was so glad she was having my baby.